"..because I'm not really sure if I believe in starting over anymore. I'm starting to think that life is all about letting go and moving on."
-Autumn M. Ritchie
If you think I've started a new blog, I haven't. The original plan was to buy my own domain and start all over. After I parted ways with my first blog, I didn't really want to come back to the blog world if I didn't own my own spot. Instead, I just started up this blog, switched the title a bunch of times, got bored with it, decided I wanted to own my own domain after all, got frustrated by what I was reading, decided I would quit blogging (for like 3 weeks), came back to it, did more research, got distressed over what I read, deleted all of my posts and decided to start over in a more organic fashion. So how shall we begin? Let's do this:
My name is Autumn M. Ritchie.
This is a picture of my face.
I've been writing now for 15 years. I started at the age of 7.
I love writing, but I have not a clue what to do with it anymore. People are always telling me that I should work for a newspaper (there's actually not much money in that, and these days it's like "how long will the paper be around?") I've tried freelancing, and I somehow think that working for the paper would be easier.. so there you have it.
After I graduated from college, I decided that I wanted to move to Atlanta, and find a way to work for Tyler Perry. The move to Atlanta almost seemed like it was about to happen, and then after a really long story (that I'm not gonna tell. Lol), I ended up staying out here in my college town. For about 5 years (26 - 31), I spent my time being obsessed with the dream of Tyler Perry (there are a few layers to that dream, so I'll just file it under TP), moving to Atlanta, and having a career in film.
These days, while I still have an admiration and respect for Tyler, I feel that God may be putting me on a path to do my own thing. Don't get me wrong, I would still love to work with Tyler Perry someday, but I think that word is with, and not for. At this point, I really don't want to have to work for anyone when it comes to my craft.
This morning, I told God that I did not know where to start with my writing. And I don't. You have to understand (in my Jamar Rogers voice), that I NEVER thought that writing would play this major of a role in my life. As a child, I was introduced to it in 2nd grade. Right away, there was something about it that had a hold on me. Apparently, people think I'm good at it because they always seem to be drawn to it. I have heard more than once: "I don't even like to read, but I read this (or something along the lines)." I know that it's a huge part of my purpose in life, but I feel like I never have the time that I need to put into it. I have so many ideas, and want to write so many works. How will I ever get it all done, and in a polished, and professional manner before I'm 80?
Anyway, while I am figuring out my life, I'm going to write this blog. The thing about blogging is.. well.. it seems to have a hold on my soul. I picked it up in 2009, and have tried to put it down several times, but it won't let me go. Right now, I don't want to see myself as a serious blogger. I just want to be casual. I want this to be more like an online journal for now. I also want it to just be more organic to who I am. The title has my name. I'm going to be taking my own photo's (when I decided to post a photo). I don't have a lot of expectations or anything. I guess I just still need a space to vent.
So, off we go. Out with the old. In with the new. Let's see what happens. Oh, and if this post seems incomplete, and all over the place it's because I think I had way too much candy and caffeine over the weekend. I feel like I am going to pass out from it all at any second. Lol. Never again! Omygosh, never again!